Exhausted

我宁愿从来都不认识你...

baby asked me to help her blogpost and she is now damn playing with my psp :(
i jealous i wan play:(
tmr get it bck from her hehehe:D
and take crayon shin chan part 3 lols
ok baby slept less than an hour today hahas but she still accompanied me
to go to gp mac and hav breakfast
and garlic chili is bck:D hahas i love it
lols ok baby complaining to me alr.. hahas lols
oso dunno wad to post abt i only noe tmr gt class and i damn bu xiang qu...
cos tiring larr.. my whole holiday is packed man..
dammit and hao hao de enjoy.. but tahan larr
till september den gt 1 month exam break till my 'n' level
lols baby muz work hard k??
i love u the most :D
lols jeez
and ah pui hav gf alr.. i hav ah pui and his stead intimating photo:D
wahahahahahahahah
ok larr tts all nth to post abt realli.. lols
ok tts it bye:D

Too late

I got to know earlier before i started to make stupid decision. Too late for anything, you take care. I dont know why, i cant seems to forget everything. Why am i such a failure? I yearn nothing but you. Still, its too late. I was looking at our photos and crying at the same time.

I'm waiting for my aunt's good news, hoping tht there's place and ticket for me to Langkawi. I hope i can make use of this time to forget everything in order to make my life better. :(

Game Over

Both cars reach the finishing line. In the end both go separate ways. Both not together anymore. I thought this two cars can go further on. I thought this two cars will be together till petrol left empty and i wake up and realise everything is just a dream. I forced myself into sleep and i only manage to meet the black scene. All over and it can never happen again. I told you dont turn back and now i got it once again. I thought this time can go for very long. I thought it will be a happy one. Dry up all the tears, move on with your life. I doubt i can do this ever again. Once i doubt, i will never trust. I knew i will be wrong if i doubt you but i just dont have the courage to tell you i trust you.

Sunny and wind

Today is a very very very good day. I sibeh happy. I bought dont know wht lj hairdye and now i have to redye as the colour is either cant be "absorb" properly or its too dark for my hair. Fuck sia, hair spoil plus waste money and time ZZZ. I miss Boss he at where ah i forget. Relatives at my house, sibeh bored sia. Zzz,

I'm trying to give you my best, you know?

Just wht is this 8 months to you? Dont misunderstand we didnt break up, just something crop up only. I know i cant be compared to your ex-s all i can say is their homework are all thumbs up and wht about mine? I am nothing but a rotten apple. I understand myself the most, just take a glance at my mye and i am sure i cant be promoted to sec4 most probably is drop out of school. I know i have serious attitude problem and bad-temper but wht can i do when i am born liddat? I rly dont know how to thank you for putting those effort. You're my longest stead and the one who understand me the most, most of the time. Its rly very difficult for me to let go you see. From the start of this r/s, things dont turned out well but both of us tried out best all the way thts why we can maintain till now. But just wtf is happening to this few months?!?!?! Things dont turned out well, quarrel everyday, making each other bad mood for the whole day. But when things dont goes wrong, we will be playing and fooling happily around. We dont care if its public or shopping mall, as long as we are happy its enough. Dont say we're selfish cos you dont know whts happening between both of us. Remember people always say we're the nosiest couple? Remember most of the places we went to people keep asking if we're brother and sister and i will be the first to speak up saying tht i am the elder sister and after we walked away from tht place we will laugh at the person. There's too many for me to elaborate. I just want to say sorry, i may not be the best but i hope you know i am trying alr. I hope quarrels between us can stop, just stop and we can be as happy as the past. Went to find each other and create public nuisance. I never regretted being with you but one day if you're rly leaving i will just give my best wishes to you and set you free. I have no rights to control you, so from today onwards wht you want do just go ahead. I just want you to be happy. I hope i can hold on this key till as long as i can. I'm sorry for wht i've done most of the time. Although there's still no improvement in me but i just need some time more. I hope you know, i am rly trying... If you being alone can rly be very happy, i let go. I will just go back to single life.

One fine day

I have alot of fun with baby. He came and fetch me to gekpoh and then went to arcade. And then went puffpuff. And then knnbccblcbpcbpljclj and then went to 8head. Then went home around 7.45pm. Me now waiting for Boss to call me. I am so bored. Kah gin lah cb.

Kpo eh pcb:) Think i live for you ah? Go hongan lah. :D

Thanks for everything you've done

I think tht Boss just appear at the right time in my life. I'm rly very elated today. We didnt quarrel and we're very happy:) He put in effort to have a long chat with me going 3hours i think. Although its still not long enough for me cos i dont fall asleep easily but its ok. Thanks for listening to wht i have said and brag about. Talked about my studies just now and i am very happy cos you said tht i tried and you think i can do better although you cant do anything other than giving me moral support but i know you have the heart can alr. Love you more than words and actions tht can describe it. Will rly try my best to treasure and avoid quarrels still, will not forgetting my goal which is to make you happy everyday. I will give you my best. Xoxo.

True and False only

I dont know why sometimes i think tht chinese songs are more meaningful than english one. It can speaks for you, your feeling and thoughts. LOL, i sneak out just now although its like broad daylight. Whtever, no use sneaking out at night wht. Boss having probation sneak to where? Funny, LOL. Me sibeh bored now. Tsk, i dont want go back to see for tht lanjiao cca i think like waste time only. Westwood only got those lanjiao cca then no more alr. Wtf, sibeh bored and sibeh die one. I didnt went to cca this year, not a single time. I went very shag whenever i see him calling names out for cca attendance. Its me everytime so suay got me. Cb, when then can pass out ah knn. Aiyooo, sibeh bored. I broke another nails of mine again:(

Wtf is happening

I dont think i deserve to be treated like this. Stop treating me depending on your mood, i aint your toy. If you cant stop it, get lose from me. I am so 100% sure you dont want to be treated liddat either.

Extending it

Wht are you other than a poser cum my dog. Dog, learn to be good k. I will feed you biscuit. NO! Even dogs are cuter than you. <:

I am sibeh bored now. I am sibeh looking forward to tomorrow. I did quite a number of housechores and dad is very satisfied with it. I miss Jiahui and i dont know why. And i miss Yap like confirm only. Meet up soon k, miss you so much want to chat with you again:D Mabel didnt reply me in msn, she dont miss me ah? Lol, zoeonglaobei come talk to me just now and make me chuasai. She asking me about holiday going out thing...

Dad and Mum, i know both of you are very disappointed with my result even though there's improvement in most of the subjects. I know its been hard for you to have such a notorious daughter like me. I know i am alr beyond of both of your controls but give me time to change back, and give my best to you. Tho most of the time we're quarrelling and i always create troubles for both of you. I know all you two can do are giving reminders and reprimands, i have to thank you two for not giving up on me. I will quit smoking, study hard and heed your advices. Without you two there wont be me, i believe i am old enough to think alr. I will try my best, just for the both of you.

Boss, i know something happened yesterday. I apologise for my mistakes and dare not ask for another chance for you. I know wht i had said hurt you alot, i promise this wont happen again and i will spare a thought for you. I know you've been tolerating me since few months ago. I cant deny tht i am getting out of hand. I know you know why i am liddat and you did try to understand me thts why you've not get totally flare up yet, i hope i will never see it and hope you can put yourself into my shoe more. I dont know wht will i be if i lose you. This 8th months you have been with me almost everyday, trying your best to make me happy, did so much for me to make me feel protected, waste so much money to let me buy clothes and stuff just to make me happy. Only i dont know how to treasure you. Although nothing happened after yesterday last phone call but i just feel very guilty and i think you deserve to be treated better.

I also dont know why i will post this kind of thing maybe due to my current mood thts why lidday. I am happy cos my best are always there for me. Love you both^^

Yingjie, why kimbum so cute ah?!?!?!?!

Finishing line

I am sorry i dont understand you, i am sorry cos i said words tht hurt you. I dont know izzit coming to the end. I just love you alot.